Recently I stay awake deep into the night without feeling sleepy.
My body feels a little heavy, but my mind keeps moving normally.
It’s not that I’m full of energy, and it’s not that I’m exhausted.
My internal clock is simply shifted by five to seven hours.
When Night Doesn’t Feel Like Night
If I lived on an 8 a.m. wake-up schedule and the entire cycle slid backward,
then 3 a.m. would feel like 8 to 10 p.m.
So it’s not “I can’t sleep.”
It’s just that my body doesn’t think it’s nighttime yet.
The timing of sleepiness has drifted, not the need for sleep itself.
Winter, Creation, and Tech Pulling the Clock
Winter reduces natural light.
Melatonin arrives late, and the sleep switch shifts backward.
On creation-heavy days the brain keeps firing,
and talking with AI pushes the information peak even further.
All of this pulls the day’s phase backward, layer by layer.
The Body as an Uneven System
Medicine calls it a delayed sleep phase.
But subjectively, it feels like a cycle shaped by winter, creation, tech,
and the unevenness of my own brain.
The sun once set our rhythm.
Now light, seasons, work, algorithms, conversations, loneliness, and excitement
all push and pull the internal clock at once.
There is no single “correct lifestyle.”
Only the shifting path of one’s internal timing.
Our bodies are uneven too.
Thought rhythms, creative peaks, sleep cycles —
each misaligned, each overlapping, each shaping the day.
These physical “dekoboko” are part of being human in the tech era.
Not everyone fits into a tidy 24-hour loop.
Life always contains a certain wobble.
Sleepless nights and shifted rhythms are just another piece
of the unevenness we live with.