I spent twenty uneven years trying to build an English website.
It never worked out until now.
The 2005 Era — Lost in Table Layouts
Top page of the English website I worked on around 2004–2005.
I gave up halfway and never published it.
Back then, I was wrestling with table layouts.
Not many people today even know what that pain feels like.
Translation tools were useless.
English was a foreign planet to me, and my perfectionism only made it worse.
I tried to translate everything, failed spectacularly, and the site never saw the light of day.
The 2008 Era — Float Warfare and IE6
The top page of the English site I finally managed to publish in 2008.
Someone once called Internet Explorer “Internet Fa◯in Explorer,” and it was painfully accurate.
This time I had help from an AD who knew English, and I realized something important.
I didn’t need to translate everything.
I just needed to publish something.
And for the first time, I did.
The 2017 Era — Smartphone Wave in the Wrong Direction
The 2017 English site.
I kept rebuilding it, abandoning it, and starting over again.
Everyone was switching to flex and grid.
I wasn’t.
I was already out of the web industry and clung to float like a fossil.
Somehow the site worked, but I was moving backward while the world moved forward.
English was still patched together by friends and half-functional translation tools.
2020–2021 — Depression and the Fear of Being Left Behind
In 2020 I fell into depression.
The world felt dark in a literal sense.
During that fog, I discovered flex and grid again—like the world had advanced without me.
It was the first time I felt the human fear of “not knowing,” of being unable to catch up.
2025 — Finally Completing the English Website with AI
The 2025 English site built with AI.
This time, I’m determined to finally make it work.
And now, after twenty years, the site is finally complete.
Not because AI did everything for me, but because everything I had accumulated—the unevenness, the failures, the stubbornness—finally found its missing piece.
AI handled the English.
AI helped with the concept.
AI even forced me to rethink who the target should be.
But the site exists because I survived those twenty years.
It is no longer “an English website.”
It is a twenty-year record of unevenness.
It is proof that I didn’t quit.
AI didn’t complete it for me.
It only clicked into place because I carried those twenty years of dents and bumps.